To: Mom and Dad
From: Laney
Date: Um Today (duh!)
Subject. I am not not picking up the phone.

Okay I am not picking up the phone but for a very good reason. The trackball on my phone stopped working so ATT told me to go to the warranty replacement center. They replaced my phone, track ball working and everything, for free! No activation fee either! Only when I finally get home to look up Jen's phone number to make a phone call guess what. It sounds like I am under water! I am going to try again tomorrow morning and hope that maybe it just needs to sync up to the network properly but if not I will have to journey back to ATT tomorrow to get this fixed again!

Thank you so much for looking up that book for me. I am now 43 out 50 on the waitlist. I didn't move up, but the waitlist got longer. LOL! I guess we know what I will be asking for Christmas. Still it is to bad because I finally figured out how to make audiobooks work on my laptop so that the screen goes dark but they keep on playing so it's kind of like falling asleep while listening to a book which I used to do all the time. Only now the problem is I wake myself up because I am so interested in the book and then force myself to stay up again. But at least I am getting a few hours a night. I am hoping that once finals are over and my brain relaxes more I will be able to sleep again.

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Nothing else here other than the reason that I really wanted to talk to you the other day and I can't remember now if I did because everything is starting to blur together from my lack of sleep is that Cindy told Al that I was being resistant to making credit card purchases. Which makes me so mad because she didn't say anything to me about it before she talked to Al. Al already knew what was going on though because he had called that day when I had to go get the lables and asked me what was going on and I told him. I wasn't being resistant though. All I said was that I didn't have my card and couldn't I order them online when I get back to the University after I have my meeting about the KPI because if we order them online they are half the cost and they will get there by noon the next day.

Cindy didn't even bother to call me to tell me how urgent it was and instead just went to the Center Director who had requested and then then to the University Director. I told her that if it was really urgent she should have called me before going to them to let me know how urgent it was since that was the question that I had asked but no one seemed willing to answer except to yell at me and make me feel bad because they all were acting like I was trying not to do my job. Well now I know why because Cindy told them that I didn't want to buy the stupid lables which was not even what I said! She didn't say that exactly but basically what she told them implied that.

Anyway the whole thing practically happened again yesturday but guess what! All of our credit cards are not active because we are switching form one bank to another. I told the Acting Director that I had just been to Staples last week for them and why didn't they say the needed more of the same labels that I bought and request more of the folders which I went to Staples for two weeks prior to the lable incident. He was not pleased. He said, "There is this saying, poor planning on your part does not consitute an emergency on my part. Find good subtitues for what they are requesting and show them to me before you give them to them. Then will try to figure out a way to order anything else that they might need." Now it seems like he is going to back us up more. I am going to send an e-mail on Monday asking them to please furnish the list that he requested for the anticipated supplie needs for all of FY 09, with pricing, and the dates that they will need the items. It is only fair because he did ask them to send the list and really all these events that they are having are planned months in advanced, they just don't bother to think enough about what they will actually need to make the events happen.

I know everyone always says that I shouldn't make friends with people I work with cause it causes problems and because since I have such trust issues that I need to be overly trusting of my friends and when the wrong me I am very likely to never give them a second chance. Which is why I shouldn't be friends with people I work with because if that happens with people at work, well I still have to work with them. But it is so hard because I am such an introvert and I really can't stand the idea of going to random places to make friends.

So this weekend is a stay in bed weekend because lets face it, it is too cold to do anything else and I still to busy trying to proccess the latest of the lies that Cindy told me to try to make it seem like she wasn't the one that did anything wrong that it was Admin Assistant who misinformed her. Which is totally not true. Candance swears she didn't say anything to Cindy other than that I didn't have my card with me, I was going to place an order anyway, couldn't we just order the stupid lables with that order. That's not what Cindy says though. Guess who I don't believe since she keeps trying to go behind my back. I think I have really figured out what she is trying to do. She is trying to put a wedge between me and Al because she knows that Al thinks I am a very good employee and I work very hard. And she is just upset because she is not the favorite anymore. Tough luck! I still am not the favorite, loads of people don't like me because I make them do their job. But that is why they call it work. She just needs to deal. I'll tell you one thing. I'm glad I am taking so many classes next semester, that way I don't have to feel like I have to help her with her math homework anymore (Cindy I mean not Candace).

Okay I am going to go now because this has been a really long and rambling message!

Anyway the doctor said that I had to do another blood test because even though my liver enzyme test came back normal my hematocrit was low, which is the fancy way of saying that I am anemic. I refuse to believe this but I do like saying the word hematocrit, maybe that is my problem. So she tested for that, gave me a flu shot, and looked at the lump on that has been bothering me cause it’s just hanging out there on my left side. The lump was nothing, something about a collection of fat or something, anyway not a big deal. The flu shot didn’t hurt as much as I thought it would. The iron test was annoying but they only took three tubs of blood as opposed to my normal seven to eight tubes of blood when the do my liver tests.

I have decided that I do not like needles. I cannot look at them as they go into my skin. Granted I’ve never tired to look at them while they are going into my skin but I see them there lying on the table and I just have to look away.

Oh in other big news the doctor was not happy that I was not sleeping. Yeah well, umm… Anyway she gave me a sleeping pill, which has been working. Yay!

So I go to work the next day, I think I am going to die. I think the combination of the flu shot and me starting my period was just too much. I was weak, shakey, and thought I was going to throw up several times throughout the day. But I had to stay. There were these important binders that had to be put together for an important presentation. I stayed. Finally around 2 PM I started to fill better, I opted not to eat as I was not sure what would happen if I did but I did manage to stay the full day! Go me!

I don’t like feeling like I have to throw up. So now the newest theory is that because my hematocrit (there’s that word again) levels are low that is why I get sick when I get my period. Oh and that I have to go see a GYN so that my periods can be more regulated and I do not loose so much blood. A) do not like GYN’s last time they did a PAP it made me bleed and it hurt for two days! B) my insurance is changing in like two days.

So doctor says I must buy this iron supplement which I am totally opposed to because I am not anemic I tell ya! Oh and she says once my insurance changes I must go to GYN so that my periods will be more regular. GYN will not do that though because of the liver thing. I cannot be put on the pill because of it. Hell I probably shouldn’t even be taking the sleep pill but apparently I need to sleep so I guess I have to take it.

Grr!

Oh well. TTYL!

We got to the part of the lease where I had to initial next to the rules to indicate that I agreed with them. I started putting my initials down and handed the paper to my brother. He said that I didn't initial I put the "at" sign. I said no, I put the "e" sign cause my initial is ek with a circle around it only after signing my name twenty times I gave up and just did e with a circle around it. Then we got into a conversation regarding where the "at" sign came from and what it's name was.

Well I found out. Please click on the following link to find out:

WHERE IT’S AT: http://www.worldwidewords.org/articles/whereat.htm

Just thought I would share!

Have a great day!

I know it's been forever and a day since I've posted. I'm actually thinking of re-doing this site completely. Not sure how though because I still want it to cross-post to my livejournal but I'll figure it out.

Anyway I'm waiting to hear back from UMBC to see if I can start my career as a social worker. Okay not really start, but at least start my major.

On the plus side I found out that my mom and dad want to take me to Peru when I get my Bachelors degree! I'm super excited about this and now am more motivated to finish school and get my Spanish up to par because I'm not going to Peru and not being able to speak my own language!

I also want to learn the native language which is Quechua. But I think that might be a goal for later on as no one here speaks it.

Well I should get back to work I have to finish reading at least one article from the NY Times and make a post about it before I go and head out to see the Lion King!

Super excited about that! WOOHOO!

Alright let me see… I got promoted! Or rather I will be. I start my new position at my job toward the end of January. I’m very excited about it because I am going to be learning a lot about training. I have to talk to my project manager though because there is one class that I really want to take and I am hoping she will let me “How Adults Learn.” We’ll see.

Relationships: Don’t make me laugh. Right now I’m seeing anyone, thinking of seeing anyone, anything. Maybe that will change. I don’t know. I’m not looking because honestly the only guys I ever seem to find attractive are the ones that are already married or have girlfriends (for example: every guy I’ve ever dated.)

Television: The writer’s strike is totally bumming out man! I love TV. You know I do. I’m a very good American because I’m such a good TV watcher. But when they show crap shows because there no more new episodes of my normal shows it makes me upset. Thank god Netflix is back on. I turned it off while I was taking my class.

I took a class on Controlling Stress and Tension at my local CC. I got an A! I’m so so proud! I’m wicked smart! LOL! I’m enrolled in another course too, or at least I will be after tomorrow. I have to wake up extra early so that I can deposit a few checks and then I can enroll in my course. Don’t want the bank balance to bounce. God I hope the class I want doesn’t fill up!

Just have to say it again: I GOT AN A IN MY CLASS!!!!!!

Well that’s it for now. Hope all is well with everyone! Happy New Year!

For New Year’s, so I would not be left alone like I was on my birthday, I called up my friend Sue and asked her she had plans. She said no. Then I said well could I bring over some food and you, me and Chris hang out. She said so you are inviting yourself over. I said yes. It worked though. We had a really good time and the lasagna that I made tasted really good. A couple of our other friends showed up too so fun was had by all! No toasting though, none of us are drinkers

TTYL

Laterz,
Laney

I know I haven't posted in a while. Okay ages! Months even!

I've been busy. I'm taking a class now at the local CC here and I'm doing very well! So far I have an A.

At my job I've been offered the chance to move positions which is kind of like a promotion without actually being a promotion, lol.

My family's been through the ringer because of my ESIL (evil-sister-in-law) who was threatening lots of stuff but it seems under control now.

Johnson has had a cold since July and I have no idea what to do about it. He is not acting sick!

umm.... Yeah that's it!

Anyway I'm still alive. Barely but I'm hanging in there.

I haven't been sleeping much but that could be because I just don't sleep well anymore. Therefore I'm always tired so I've started taking caffeine pills to stay awake at work. Probably not a good idea but I don't like coffee so...

I just have to say this again: I'M GETTING AN A IN MY CLASS!

Okay so it might not stay that way but hey for the majority of the class I got an A which means I can totally finish with a B for the semester!

TTYL!

Laterz!

Laney

What I found out that would happen before I got the book (aka foilers and spoilers): At least 6 people would kick it, Harry would kick it, Harry wouldn’t kick it, Snape would kick it saving Harry, Snape was the last horcrux, Hagrid would kick it.

What actually happened:

The characters whose death had an impact on me (aka people who have been in more than one book that a) I remember or b) was made to be important because they were in more than one book): Hedwig, Mad-Eye, Wormtail, Dobby, Crabbe, Fred, Lupin, Tonks, Snape, Colin Creevey (was he the younger old one?), Bellatrix, Harry, and Voldemort!

Okay that’s way more than 6 and those are what I consider the important deaths mostly because these people have been in more than one book. There were people who we just meet who were dying left and right!

Deaths that made me the most sad: Hedwig, Dobby, Fred, Lupin, Tonks, and Colin Creevey.

Hedwig: If one of my cats or Morty died I would probably not leave my apartment for a week!

Dobby: Why! I mean seriously, why!

Fred: I heard on MuggleCast that this would put an end to twin-cest, which thank god for that. I’ve never come across it but come on people! Geez! However, Fred! They just got Percy back and they loose Fred! That’s just cruel!

Lupin and Tonks: I know they didn’t have a proper death scene but I was in shock! They just had a baby! Of course I totally didn’t see Lupin and Tonks coming, that was like say what? But when they were killed I couldn’t get over it. Do you realize that means all of the Marauders are now dead! How evil!

Colin Creevey: Sure the Creevey brother’s annoyed Harry but come on! They were innocent, awful, just awful!

I’m not going to say that the other deaths made me happy because they didn’t. Voldermort, well what are you going to say about him? I mean really what else was going to happen?

On the epilogue: I don’t know how I feel about it. I was kind of happy to see what happened to them but at the same time it felt incomplete and hokey. Why, well after all that death and such it was just rushed and felt like. Oh well after everyone died the people who managed to not kick it lived happily ever after. Ta da!

What Jen and I rewrote the epilogue to (I am paraphrasing and adding a bit too): Jen and I talked on phone last Sunday (7/22) after I finished the book and we decided to re-write it One Tree Hill style!

After Harry and Ginny get married and before Hermione and Ron get married Harry and Hermione are hanging out one night and get really drunk. A la George and Izzy from Grey’s Anatomy they sleep together. Hermione gets pregnant but she is not 100% sure that it’s Harry’s so she ends up telling Ron it’s his and they get married. She lucks out that the kid has red hair and figures it’s got to be Ron’s forgetting the fact that Harry’s mom had red hair.

We fast forward to the scene at King’s Crossing where all the kids are getting on the train. After they leave and Ron has seen all the kids together things start to click in his head. He figures out that Hugo (whom I think is the oldest kid) is really Harry’s. Chaos ensues and Ron goes mad and ends up in St Mungo's Hospital for Magical Maladies and Injuries. Ginny is furious not because Hermione and Harry slept together but because they drove her brother insane. She leaves Harry with 3 kids and runs off with either Neville or Draco (take or your pick).

Harry and Hermione are stuck with the kids but since they aren’t in love with each other and they bumble along haplessly trying to raise a total of 5 kids who have varying degrees of resentment towards them since they are now only single parent families.

And that people is real life! Well except of the part where Ginny runs off with Draco, if you picked that choice.

I know, I know, you didn’t think it could get worse than JKR’s ending, ha! You were so wrong! So, so, so wrong! *evil maniacal laughter*

Well I’m off to bed. ^_^

TTYL!

Laterz!

Let’s see… On July 20th I went to my local Boarders and picked up my wristband for being on the waitlist for the brand new Harry Potter book, Harry Potter and the Deathly Hollows. Can you believe it, the waitlist! Crazy! Anyway I went back for the event which started at 9:30ish but I was too scared to go in at first so I talked with Jen for a bit on the phone. I’m not kidding. There were a ton of people there. But it was so much fun. There was this one girl who was about 10 maybe a bit older and she was dressed as Bellatrix Lestrange and she totally had the best costume there. They had a contest but this cute little baby girl whose mom put her in a “witch” costume won instead. I use the word witch loosely because the costume was only witchy because of the witch’s hat the baby had on. Anyway it was great fun and the Boarders employees were so funny because they took their jobs so seriously.

So I didn’t read the end like a lot of people did. I had seen some spoilers but they were really just foilers! Some told me that someone was going to die who didn’t. I’m not going to say though cause I’m sure there are still some people out there who haven’t finished yet. This I got home around 2am I went to bed after I finished the first two chapters than woke up and started reading again. I got about half way through and called Sue and we agreed to meet up around 7pm to go see Hairspray!

OMG! It was the 7:45pm showing and it was practically sold out! It was so good. The movie is about two hours, just a little bit shy of it actually but it didn’t feel like it at all. I remember when I watched Dreamgirls, which I liked, but was like, another song, really, do these people ever actually talk? Hairspray was not like that at all! It was prefect! I loved it. Oh and we walked by a 10pm showing and that was packed too! Hairspray is clearly a hit in the DC area, and everywhere else from the news reports I read.

I have to say though I was disappointed in Amanda Bynes’s voice. I had already heard it because I heard some of the pre-released recordings and it just was not the same as the other girls who played Penny. Penny is supposed to find her inner soul girl throughout the musical and Amanda Bynes’s voice just didn’t quite make it. I think the producers realized this because Amanda got a lot of help from the voice of the guy who played Seaweed. He ending up picking up a lot of the singing parts that original songs have as Penny solos.

Still it was very good and I’m going to go to DE again this weekend, I hope, and make my mom go see it with me. If I don’t go to DE this weekend I’ll probably go next.

So go see Hairspray and go buy Harry Potter! Or by Harry Potter online but please do not download bootleg copies of Hairspray. You really must see it in the theater to get the full experience.

I really cannot emphasis this enough because since Broadway is so prohibitively expensive it is important that these movie musicals are supported so that those of us who cannot spend $150 on a Broadway ticket, which by the way is the going rate for a non-Tony award winning show, will have a chance to enjoy these production as well.

See Hairspray in the theaters!

Okay enough of that. TTYL!

Laterz!

Mostly that is because I have not gone above 1200 calories and I’ve been totally feeling awful about it. I swear I do not have an ED. I just don’t like healthy food so I don’t tend to eat that much of it. Weird, I know.

So anyway I totally woke up sick and didn’t eat much at all because I didn’t feel good. So tonight I forced myself to eat some hotdogs. Hotdogs do not have as many calories as you think they do. And if you eat them they way I do you can actually have four hotdogs and still have fewer calories than any McDonald happy meal.

Today I’ve had a grand total of 1215 calories. I have no idea how much fat or carbs and I’ve kind of decided to stop counting the carbs because it’s too much trouble.

So far since I’ve started this, we are on Day 8 now, I’ve lost 5 pounds, and kept it off! Woot! Go me! Although my IQ seems to have dropped dramatically because I just tried to spell lost and kept with an “ed” at the end of each. Hmm…

Okay so at work today I entered in six classes! A record high for me! But it’s good because that means I only have eight more classes to enter tomorrow and on Thursday.

My friends hate me though. Just because my birthday happens to be on a national holiday they seem to think that it’s okay not to at least invite me to whatever other party that they are having! Not cool! You don’t have to give me presents but don’t you think it’s kind of pathetic that this is the first time in four years that I’ve been in the area and you are all have BBQ’s and have not invited me?!?!

Whatever, all I really want for my birthday is for at the end of your festivities that you come out to the National Mall with me, or the Gaithersburg Fairgrounds, pay for my parking, cause that would be nice but I’ll cough up the $12, it’s only $12, and watch the fireworks with me. That really isn’t much to ask, is it?

Having your birthday on a day like July 4th, New Year’s Day, Christmas, St. Patrick’s Day, or Halloween sucks! Why? Because these are constant holidays, they don’t change, the date always stays the same. And people are always either obligated to spend time with their family because, it’s a national holiday, or they are throwing parties but they don’t invite you because they think it would be rude to have you at a party that doesn’t acknowledge your birthday at all!

Not inviting your friend to a party is rude, and that’s just that!

So this is where I stand on this issue. I’m not going to Vicky’s party because she didn’t invite me. This is how our conversation went:

Me: Want to go to the fireworks?
Vicky: No, can’t having party.
(insert awkward silence)
Me: That’s cool! Have fun.
Vicky: Um, you can come if you like.
Me: Yay!
Vicky: It’s going to be all couples though.
(insert second awkward silence)
Me: I’ll get back to you.

Okay so she has an excuse for not inviting me. All of her friends are couples. I, being the lone single girl in the coward, would not have any fun. Plus I really don’t like her friend Red-Headed-Bitch-Jen.

Peter is doing a family thing. Plus we still aren’t really talking.

Angie, god only knows if she is even in the country right now!

Sue, I’ve e-mailed her twice and nothing. Oh I even called her!

Yeah, birthdays… I don’t expect anything.

Hopefully someone will want to go to the fireworks with me! Please!

TTYL!

Laterz!

PS: I’m not sure why I’m begging here, none my friends even knows that this blog exists. Woot!

My boss was really stressing me yesterday because he was asking for some data which hasn’t been updated in months and which he can pull himself. Also because of him the day before I couldn’t do any of the things that were actually the priority. Anyway I told him that there was no way we could get it done by Monday and there really isn’t. I could spend all weekend on it but I’m not going to.

For the rest of the day I was stressed and unfocused which I tried really hard to focus but I was not able to. Today I’m just not going to look at any of my e-mail unless it is from the director and I’m going to tell the receptionist that if she needs me to come set up for the desk for her she better send an e-mail because I’m not picking up my phone at all.

Day 4

Total Calories Consumed: 1015 c
Total Fat Consumed: 23.83 g
Total Carbs Consumed: 139.5 g

Not bad considering that I had cake. I feel like the count should be higher but it’s not. I mean I really only had about a teaspoon of it so I guess that’s why. I had fajitas for lunch and yogurt for dinner. I was so full from lunch still. Really though I have to get my calorie count to be at least 1200 c per day otherwise I know I’ll binge this weekend.

Things that I have to do this weekend:

Go get my eyebrows done. Go get my picture take for my new driver’s license. Get my gym card refreshed because I haven’t been in forever and my legs look like crap. Go to Sephoria and by more Fat Girl Slim. I swear to god that stuff works! I’ve lost almost a full inch around my waist which is great! Oh and renew my lease. Thankfully they aren’t hiking my rent up too much. Just about $50 and since I cannot afford to move right now I’m going to take it!

I really hope I get enough of my what I need to get entered in today as possible because I really want to get my eyebrows down today so they don’t look awful for my driver’s license which I have to get on Saturday, it’s the last day it will only cost $30 to renew it. Yay!

Also I have to make some more LJ Icons this weekend! I managed to talk myself into using some of my birthday money to by an LJ account instead of being a good girl and paying off more of my bills. I figure I should treat myself since I’ll be 26, ugh! That’s so close to 30. I think I would feel better if I was in a relationship or something. Of course that would require me being able to handle a relationship and I’m way too needy, clingy, and selfish right now to handle one.

But at least I know what’s wrong with me and admitting you have a problem is the first step to solving it. Right! ;-D

TTYL!

Laterz!

My mom and I don’t get along for more than 3 days at a time. The reason, we are both very similar to each other. I have no problem admitting that I’m exactly like my mom. No problem at all, cause my mom is actually kind of awesome. I say kind of because she is my mom.

Anyway when I got back to work I had to do all kinds of things except for the ones that I actually needed to do. I might have to stay late tonight. I don’t know.

Total Calories Consumed: 1273.75 c
Total Fat Consumed: 26 g
Total Carbs Consumed: 209.87 g

The reason for the higher count: up until about 5 PM I had only actually consumed 230 calories because I didn’t get to have lunch yesterday. I went to help one of my coworkers out with his rabbit because it needs IV antibiotics because he took care of my cats while I was in Hungary. So he was nice enough to order dinner too. And no it’s not what you think, get your mind out of the gutter you nasty, nasty people. The reason I had to help him out is cause his wife is out of town. The day before one of other coworkers went and helped him and today someone else is. Which is a good thing since like I said before, I’ll probably be staying late.

Yay to the fact that I finally got over 1200 calories I just need to keep that up cause if I don’t I know I’ll end up fucking everything up by bingeing. Fingers crossed that Day 4 will go as well.

TTYL!

Laterz!

Yesterday though I decided that I need to start posting more often because well, I could tell that I was starting up again with my negative thinking.

I was in the car and while I was driving to work I saw a sign that said two left lanes closed ahead due to an accident. Of course my first thought was, omg I'm going to be late for work. Then panic set in. Then I started thinking about how the airbag in my car would kill me because I'm so short. And of course I obsessed about that. I thought about calling my mom (at 7 AM) to find out how I should put the steering wheel so that when the airbag pops out I don't get decapitated.

Thankfully I didn't call her at 7 AM. I tried to think about other things but this airbag thing really stuck with me, which is not normal for me. So I figure I need to start writing about things and work out why my brain is currently functioning the way it is.

Click the link to read more about what's going on.

I went to the grocery store and started to purchase meals for lunch and dinner. I am using one brand of frozen meals for lunch and another for dinner. This is to try to psych myself thinking that I'm treating myself for dinner, so I'll eat actually eat the frozen meal and not go out.

I've been doing pretty good so far, granted it's only been two days:

Day 1

Total Calories Consumed: 820 c
Total Fat Consumed: 17.5 g
Total Carbs Consumed: 135 g

Day 2

Total Calories Consumed: 740 c
Total Fat Consumed: 15 g
Total Carbs Consumed: 112 g

Now as a former health store employee I do not recommend that anyone go under 1200 calories for their total consumption ever. The reason is your body needs at least 1200 to function. If you eat less than that than your body thinks that is starving and will start to horde calories instead of burn them.

That being said, I do not know how people with anorexia stay so skinny. I've been trying to read about but alas I cannot come up with any good explanation.

Anyway since I'm consuming so many frozen meals I need to up my water intake because these meals are so high in sodium. This is causing some water retention that can lead to a false weight. Plus it makes my skin prickly.

So that's it for now folks. I have to go get ready for work. I'll come back later and post more than.

TTYL!

Laterz!

Anyway here goes our little test.